My Lawn

About a month ago I looked at my lawn and I realized I am not taking care of my lawn the way I should. As a matter of fact I realized that even though I thought I knew about keeping up a yard, I didn't know the first thing about lawn care. My grass was starting to turn yellow and it was crunchy, there were even ruts where no grass was growing at all. The last straw for me was when my niece came over and walked in our backyard barefooted. She questioned why our grass hurt her feet and was not soft like theirs was. I was distraught about the situation. A lawn is supposed to be the man's domain and he should be proud of it. Here I was purposely neglecting my lawn because I was too lazy to do anything about it. I started making changes. I started reading about lawn care. Turns out I didn't know the first thing about lawn care. For instance, I didn't know that lawn blades needed to be sharpened, I didn't even know that oil needed to be changed in a lawnmower. There were a lot of things I had no idea about. So I am starting over, Im mowing every week now. I read about and study how I can care for my lawn better than I used to. I am consulting with people that know much more about lawn than I ever could like my dad and my brother-in-law. I would love to say that now my lawn is a plush green, but changes like this take time. The good news is that even though I still feel places where my lawn is crunchy I can see patches of green coming in.

I think is symbolic of what has been going on in my personal life and my Christian walk. I had become consumed with selfishness and was just becoming lazy. Other than reading a powerpoint slide of scripture on Sunday I had neglected reading the Bible. I could see that my relationships with the people that meant the most to me were suffering as a result. Much like my lawn I could see the ruts and dead places, but I was too lazy to do anything about it. When I did things that were selfless it was usually not done with a cheerful heart, rather it was done with disgust. The crazy thing was, even though it was all out of selfishness and you would think I felt great, I was a mess. Im trying to make changes now. I have changed my daily routine, I wake at 4 rather than 6:30 as I used to. I read scriptures, pray, give thanks at what I have been blessed with rather than think about what I don't have like I used to . I take the dog for a walk in the morning and read stories that I would have previously done throughout the day. This gives me more time to concentrate on my family. Like my lawn, the ruts are still there but the green is starting to come through. I hope very soon to have a plush green lawn and a newfound love and apprection for what the Lord has given me. Next time you see me, ask how my lawn is.

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